Okay, so this feels weird to announce but I just had a huge life breakthrough and I am really proud so I'm going to.
Today I was feeling incredibly shitty and for the first time in my entire life looking at my body in the mirror made me feel better instead of worse.
It sounds really small, but it is actually a huge accomplishment that has taken my entire life.
Not that I've never felt good about my body before (although that in itself is relatively recent), but it is usually on a day when I feel really good, on a day when I put effort into looking good, or right after I work out.
Today I did not feel good. I did not work out or put on makeup or nice clothes. I crawled out of bed at 11:00, reheated a huge bowl of yesterday's cheesey grits, and went back to bed to eat them while watching My Drunk Kitchen.
It's been a rough time for me lately. Actually, it's been rough for kind of a while. But the fact that I can drag myself out of bed at 3:30 in the afternoon all greasy and disheveled on a "cry on the phone to your best friend" kind of day, look in the mirror as I'm getting into the shower, think "Well, at least I look good", and actually smile deserves to be celebrated.
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